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(no subject) [May. 2nd, 2009|02:02 am]
i am so alone. yet again. you'd think i'd be used to this. but i'm not. and it hurts. i try to reach out. but it always falls flat on it's face. i'm gonna need help soon. i just hope my insurance kicks in again. sigh. i am so alone in this world. something i need to accept. and move on with my life.
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(no subject) [Apr. 21st, 2009|11:48 pm]
i miss him so much i could tear my heart out of my chest and still not feel so achingly bad... :(
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no life, no love. [Oct. 25th, 2008|10:47 am]
two years now. and i still can't believe it. have i moved on? are my coping skills this horrible? or am i just this depressed? all of the above, i guess. all of these tears. are they wasted on me? feels like everything is wasted. on me. i always amaze myself with the depths i can reach. how many lows i can surpass. it's like my superpower. how much i fuck my own life up. i guess it's the human thing to do. i can barely get out of bed these days.
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am i this weak? [Oct. 7th, 2008|05:10 pm]
-sigh- messed everything up. continuing to do so. maybe i just want to crawl back to hawaii, be it on my hands and knees or otherwise.. :( i have a sick feeling in my stomach and i don't want to walk into the room of judgment. but i know i shall have to. take care of this, or not. it's up to me. and i'm failing colossally. i feel horrible. feel like i left off an atomic bomb,and left others to deal with the aftershocks. i have let reality for the time being. if you need me, i'll be teetering on the brink of oblivion. :S
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(no subject) [Aug. 5th, 2008|01:15 am]
i have a sick feeling of dread in my tummy. a week left! no more spinning my wheels, need to get stuff done. NOW! gah. i hate myself. and my life.
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(no subject) [Jul. 26th, 2008|01:16 am]
i am so alone. and empty. -sigh-
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proof that i'm a nerd. :D [Jul. 3rd, 2008|02:04 am]
The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed. Well, let's see.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicise those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Reprint this list in your own LJ, or not, as you see fit.

1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4. Harry Potter series - JK Rowling

5. To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6. The Bible
7. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8. Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9. His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10. Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11. Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12. Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy

13. Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14. Complete Works of Shakespeare
15. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16. The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17. Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18. Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19. The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20. Middlemarch - George Eliot
21. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22. The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23. Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25. The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26. Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28. Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29. Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30. The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31. Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32. David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33. Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34. Emma - Jane Austen
35. Persuasion - Jane Austen
36. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38. Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40. Winnie the Pooh - A. A. Milne
41. Animal Farm - George Orwell
42. The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown

43. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44. A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46. Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47. Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49. Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50. Atonement - Ian McEwan
51. Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52. Dune - Frank Herbert

53. Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54. Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55. A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56. The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57. A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60. Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61. Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62. Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63. The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64. The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65. Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66. On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67. Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68. Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69. Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70. Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71. Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72. Dracula - Bram Stoker
73. The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74. Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75. Ulysses - James Joyce
76. The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77. Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78. Germinal - Emile Zola
79. Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80. Possession - AS Byatt
81. A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82. Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83. The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84. The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85. Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86. A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87. Charlotte's Web - E. B. White
88. The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom

89. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90. The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91. Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92. The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93. The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94. Watership Down - Richard Adams
95. A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96. A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97. The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98. Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100. Les Miserables - Victor Hugo
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(no subject) [May. 6th, 2008|09:31 pm]
i think androgeny is hawt. does this make me gay? or bi? *lol*
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everyday... [May. 5th, 2008|11:32 pm]
...i lose more and more faith in humanity... pretty soon i won't have any left.
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(no subject) [Apr. 13th, 2008|12:58 am]
i fucking hate geocities page builder~!!~#~@#!~@$! gar fucking damnit! it won't let me fix my poetry page that it fucked up... and i don't know enough html not to use the fucking page builder... i am so pissed off!
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